Empty spaces | questioning, yearning & searching

I have been thinking a lot about kindness. There was a time I thought kindness was everyone's default and upon reflection, I realize that is not always the case and to top it off, I realize I am not always a kind person. I have always thought of myself as a peace-loving, sweet, and kind person. Turns out I can actually be mean and it really bothers me because I am also recovering people-pleaser. I am usually mean the second a person rubs me the wrong way; or at least what I perceive to be wrong, unfair, and unjust to me. As a former people-pleaser, being kind was my go-to method in my people-pleasing era. I was shocked to realize that I am not as kind as I thought was the case. Well, I don't know when I became a mean person or when I stopped being the kindest person. The truth is, I love myself more when I am kind to everyone including when I am kind to myself . It is really important to me to be a kind person. These days I am aware of when I do something that contradicts kindn...

  It goes without saying that the phrase "amaze yourself" can mean different things to different people. For me, it means actively participating in my life in real time. In retrospect, it would seem the existence of my very being is an amazement. So, it is only fitting that when I searched deep inside of me I found the yearning to amaze myself has always been there and for the longest time, it was buried deep inside. Now that I know what I know, I vow to amaze myself at every given opportunity. For my birthday in 2022, I did a zipline and on that day I amazed myself at other times amazing myself will possibly look different, and I'm curious to dive into every version of what amazing myself looks like going into the future. I promise to come back to this day and remember the vow I made to always look for ways to amaze myself for the rest of my life and to be open to interrogating what else it's out there and in here when it comes to the notion of "amaze yourself...