Empty spaces | questioning, yearning & searching

It's been a while since I've been here; work has kept me fairly occupied. Outside of work, I've also been more intentional in spending quality time with family. All of this to say, I have missed this corner of the internet very much. I've missed coming here and putting unstructured and often unprocessed thoughts together. Thankfully, when I'm not here, I still use a physical journal to scramble my thoughts as a daily practice. It feels good to be back here, I have no idea where today's prompt will take us...IMAGINE - I'm thinking this could possibly take us in a different direction because in this space,  imagination can run wild .  For as long as I can remember, I've always had a wild imagination. Even as a child, I could easily get lost in imagination, and I know for a fact it wasn't anything like fantasy. It was purely me closing my eyes and often imagining a different world; in this world, it was always sunny with clear blue skies. My favourite t...

Today's prompt is to simply have fun! I've ruminated on this prompt for the last couple of months because for me this command to have fun means to fully be immersed in my life, to be fully immersed in the here and now! The way I see it, we don't wait to have fun, we exist to have fun. I know that sounds abstract - what I mean is life in itself is meant to be fully lived and in so doing we can have fun. So, in my quest to be fully alive and to actively participate in my God-given life, I am always on the lookout to have fun. I find the older I get the more I am aware of my need to be present and by default to have fun, to engage in the present moment and be absorbed in the now can in many ways create moments of fun even if it does not appear to be fun but by simply acknowledging the moment is to acknowledge the fun in the mere existence of the moment. I went deep there for a bit but that is truly how I interpret what having fun means, it is multi-dimensional. On a more pract...

  I recently returned from an East African trip where I enjoyed Rwandan hospitality, I took countless photos but decided to rather share this overly-exposed window seat selfie. Today's prompt is yet again apt and I love everything it holds, go places! I have always loved the idea of traveling, going, exploring, and seeing places. Growing up in the dusty streets of Mafikeng, I used to read a lot and from the books I read, I knew the world was bigger than my village. One of the countries I found fascinating from a young age and still want to see is Switzerland. But, I digress. As an avid reader, I also had a keen interest in history and global affairs as it pertains to the African continent - so my love affair with the continent interlinked with my need to travel and go places.  Now that you have a backstory, you will understand how my recent trip to Kigali is so important to me, it is part of my dream of going to places (experiencing and exploring the African continent). I als...

Oh well, how fitting as I have so much I can say about today's prompt - fear not. In my head it makes sense, I want to be fearless and daring. However, in reality, I default to worst-case scenarios, every single time.  I have a close relationship with fear and it does not take much for me to become fearful. Case in point, I recently received some disappointing personal news on something I had been praying for... I immediately moved from sadness to fear, fear of what if nothing good ever happens in my lifetime (I don't mean to be melodramatic) but fear takes me to darker places. Fear is ever present in how I move and breathe, but thankfully I also have faith and strongly believe that God is greater than any challenges that come my way. So, when fear threatens to overtake my mind, I start recalling all the ways God is been good to me and how He has already gone ahead of me, whatever my plans are for tomorrow, God is in absolute control. I trust God with my whole life and I trust ...

Where do I even start on today's prompt, enjoy life.  Time for a back story and to give context into why I started blogging after a long silence. Earlier this year, I had one of those deep meaningful conversations #DMC with someone, a person I respect and admire greatly. We had about one-hour talk over lunch and we touched on many topics mainly around where we are in terms of work and how that relates to our purpose-driven lives. I was fully aware that I was transparent but at the same time, I wasn't coherent. Let me explain, this conversation occurred around the same time I was grappling with many questions, deep-rooted personal questions. I was pacing back and forth in my head and the more I fidgeted, the heavier I felt the weight of this questioning, yearning, and searching. Thankfully this incoherence didn't take away much of our conversation, we still had heart-to-heart talk and I walked away still feeling pretty much the same emotions, but one thing was clear, I neede...

  So, I'm currently on a journey of asking deep meaningful questions, questions about life and everything in between. I use the word 'currently' but it may as well be my whole life, I've always questioned everything, but I didn't always know it to be "questioning everything".  One of the things I'm currently questioning is 'toxic positivity' this whole notion that if you think positive thoughts, good things will fall into place. I somewhat understand that complaining or being pessimistic doesn't serve anyone. I however struggle to understand how you can't even say exactly how you are feeling without a command to be positive. What does this have to do with today's prompt which is to Dream Big ?   For me, it's not as straightforward as taking it at face value because I question if I have the resources and infrastructure to Dream Big, in theory, I totally get it, but in practice for some of us Dreaming Big doesn't even move a ...